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Improvement Meme 2009-2023

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UPDATE 2023: Mhmmm another harsh year for me :^). It was a tough year for me to get through as a lot of shit happened. As it always does. But I think the biggest thing that effected me was losing my cat and currently I'm about to lose my dog again. Losing all my pets in less than a year is a big BIG punch in the face for me. I also ended up losing my job as well, though that's not much of a loss considering how unhappy I was. Art was very slow for me this year and I plan to change on that next year. I want to focus more on my comic and still reach that big goal of having a consistent schedule. I absolutely LOVE working on the comic and it always lifts my spirits to see people enjoying reading my story. It truely motivates me to continue working on it. I don't think I will be able to finish chapter 2 by next year. But I wanna get at least close to it somewhere. I also have so many unfinished sketches in my files and I would love to put some colors on a couple of them. Generally to practice more on coloring. DnD is still a big thing going on for me and I have so SOO many doodles on it. It's super fun! Though as mentioned, I would like to focus back on my comic again. The DnD doodles are more a change of sight for me. But yeah, it's a big thing for me to get my shit together and get proper planning on the art stuff I'm doing. Doing thumbs for the comic is so SO goddamn hard for me still. Planning is a big weakness I have and I want to change that.
Either way not much to say for this. I hope shit will improve next year and I can improve further~
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UPDATE 2022:
Not much of an art year to be honest. The main reason is my new job that I work at 5 days a week and in my current situation I'm working even more, which means even less time for comic. As mentioned I didn't expect that my comic would get put on the side like that. DnD as definitely become a big hyper fixation from this year and I am VERY grateful for my friends to pull me into it. It's a whole new experience for me and I'm more than here for it. But I can't deny that the DnD has become one of the reasons why I'm not putting as much time into my comic as I planned to. And that's fine. It feels like I'm taking a "break" from it even though I'd like to return to it as soon as I can. But I'm having too much fun with DnD shenanigan doodles and having some side-stuff going. It's a lot of fun! I'm definitely not bored yet.
However next year I would definitely want to return continuing the comic and at least getting somewhere close to finish off chapter 2. Figuring out a schedule has become harder than I ever imagined and I think planning the comic and scheduling when to draw it is going become one of the biggest challenges if I want to keep this up project. And trust me, I want to!! This whole comic is my whole life, all my passion. I live for this! It's what keeps me alive!
Anyways RL-wise I'm mostly overwhelmed getting this full-time job that sucks out so much energy from me. I'm not... the happiest on there tbh. In fact I am REALLY unhappy there :^). Which is why I'm embarrassing the doodles and my comic so hard. It's one of those thinks that makes me happy. And DnD has become a big part of it too. I hope the job situation will improve throughout the year and maybe I can go back to my old team. I'm just... so fucking tired. I can't even be too hyped about next year because I know stuff's gonna be tough. And I just hope I can still cling to my art as good as possible and draw things that make me happy. Everything's going to be fine.
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UPDATE 2021: Wow, what a cool comic year this was :D. It feels like I just came back from a cool party to tell y'all how happy I am with my comic! Reading through my last years text it feels like I'm getting there where I want to! The regular schedule is still something difficult to achieve, but I'm getting closer and closer to it! Obviously I want to keep it up for next year, not to mention because I finally got a job :V!! It's going to be a full time job, so it's even more important for me to have a plan how to schedule my comic-work times. Throughout the whole year it feels like I was only doing comic work and I'm more than happy with doing so. I'm having so much fun doing so. I am definitely challanged by it! The planning part was the hardest for me, as in writing the script. I still have to polish it further and get faster at planning ahead and sketching the storyboard ahead. Because I feels like I found my routine on how to work on the pages as in linearting, coloring and shading them. But the planning and sketching part I still haven't gotten perfect enough to call it a routine yet. So there's that! I'd be happy to have a more consistent schedule, so I can get forward with the story and eventually finish Chapter 2 :> . Patreon's also going hecking amazing! As of now I have 10 supporters on there and NGHMNNN, I'm more than happy with it that people want to support me with this little project. It really motivates me to keep this up.
As in RL-wise, it's still hard to overcome the trauma from 2019 and the rest of my childhood, bUT I began going to therapy! And I also found a job for next year!! It's limited for 1 year, but it's better than nothing. Not to mention it's at one of Switzerland's biggest banks and NGGHNN, I'm hyped to work there and finally earn some monEY. Either way, I think I don't have too much to say here. I am very much looking forward to the next year with more positivity and knowing what I want! LET'S GOOOOO!!! 
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UPDATE 2020:
This year was one shit show, wasn't it XD? Honestly it wasn't as bad as my previous year, even though it was pretty tough to get through because of the pandemic. But I feel like because we were all isolated, I had a lot of time to heal. It felt good! And I had tons of time for art as well and I finally began with Chapter 2. I'm still nowhere near done with the chapter, but I'm happy where it's going. Next year I will try managing a proper schedule if possible. Narrowing down to update as frequent as possible. It's pretty hard tbh since this is a fully colored and shaded comic XD. But I don't see myself changing that. Either way I can't wait to show you guys even more, because with the upcoming scenes the story actually picks up. I can finally start the shenanigans and dem G/t stuff >D. I hope with that I can get used to drawing comics more comfortable and even faster. Especially storyboarding would be very essential if I was able to do them faster.
On general art I feel way more comfortable doing paintings and general illustrations! I think it was a good choice to go back doing lineart :>. It looks cleaner and I feel like I can take my art a bit more serious. I also feel more comfortable to paint with colors. There's still way more potential to get better, but I feel more courageous than last year. I'm still trying to get that certain "feel" for coloring. But I can slowly feel it coming closer to it each time I practice more. I also feel like I need to focus on basics even more, so I can draw poses faster and with better anatomy. I feel like that I've forgotten a lot of stuff due to bullshit happening to me in the past. There's like a gap in my brain that needs to be refilled again.
Theeeen there's MobAU which I'm enjoying drawing A LOT of doodles. I haven't expected to be into it THAT much. But it feels like a good distraction from the comic so that I can also draw different things :>. I almost convinced myself to draw a comic of MobAU as well with a consistent story, but I think I'm good on Lost and Found right now XD.
Aaaand I think this is also the year I started with my Patreon! It's been going damn good!! I have 6 wonderful people who support my patreon and get to see my WIP for my comics and first dips on everything. And I'm pretty glad that people are still sticking around! I never could have imagined that I'd have that many people on there, I couldn't be more grateful!!
RL-wise, it's been pretty bumpy. As much as I had time to heal, I still need to find a proper job that isn't an internship. The pandemic surely made things almost impossible to do. My father is still a piece of crap but at least I have mom who's being the most supportive person in my life. I probably wouldn't be here without her and I'm glad that she's still encouraging me to keep on going to find a new job. It's very hard and it honestly feels impossible to find one, so I hope for the next year I can finally change that.   
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UPDATE 2019:
This was a tough year. Art-wise and life-wise it was just... too much. Too much happened and I feel like I couldn't focus on art as much as I wanted to. I mostly blame my full-time job as an intern and stuff happening RL. Gosh, I went through so much, I just felt tired the whole year through. That's why I choose these drawings since they just meants something for me on a personal level. Either way, I thînk I did learn a couple of things. I got way more comfortable with painting. It's slowly coming, it's not right there but I'm learning! Slowly but steadily I'm learning to understand more about colors. Or rather I slowly begin to "feel" the colors. I'm not right there where I wanted to be with painting, but I can feel myself growing into a direction. Let's hope it's the right one XD. I wish I had more time to work on the comic, but I struggled a lot with the plot. I knew what direction it would go, but I didn't know how. And I think I figured out that "how" this year. I hope next year I can fully begin to work on this comic and find a balance on how to constantly do pages. Especially doing some sort of storyboards for the comic, aka plan ahead. That's one big part on learning to do this comic. Just blindly rushing into it sounds not as wise to me. So I already did many many concepts this year and I will continue doing so that I can get a clear picture of what I want sort of story I want to draw.
What I also did this year was going back to basics. I think I didn't do this enough, so also next year I will continue practicing more basics again. So more anatomy practices and just general studies to get a feel for coloring. I also want to get even faster at drawing and train my mind. Lately I noticed that I get tired pretty fast. This means I just... have to train my stamina of my mind? Lol, I guess I'll do that. Okay so next year I'll focus on the same as always. Painting and going back to basics AND continue comic. I think that's it for me. Gotta work on myself on my skill AND on my mental health :>
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UPDATE 2018: Oh whoops, it does this fast and it's already another past year. Will never get tired of writing this. Anyways. I feel like this was my "least" productive year? Even tho I did actually a shitton of stuff. Especially considering I drew an entire chapter for "Lost and Found". I kinda surpressed what happened back then because I was so stressed out in finishing the chapter as fast as I could. I mean... I drew half of the chapter in less than 2 months :'). Anyways, the comic was definitly my biggest accomplishment this year. Besides that not much art really happened? I feel like I did more finished drawings than usual. Like in more of an "illustration"-level. There are a couple of drawings which I'm REALLY proud of. But overall there aren't many drawings which happened. Skill wise I tried to experiment more with coloring and painting. I tried out a lot of paintings which I didn't put on here (bc they looked really bad lul). Tho luckily I found my passion for backgrounds. Especially forests. Usually backgrounds would bore me, but lately I've been more fond of forests and nature :>. And it makes me want to learn how to draw'em. Also did Inktober again this year but honestly it stressed me out more than it helped me. I probably won't do it again next year since I think it didn't really helped me as it usually did in previous years. So what I'll try for next year is to concentrade on the next chapter of the comic. I want to put in more quality into it which means more planning. More planning in panels and how to tell the story. Giving it more of a "G/t-feel" for it. I want to give Giants more of a "size" and "weight" into them, so that you can feel intimidated through the comic itself. But ye overall, more comic, more backgrounds and forests. Let's hope it won't be as depressing as 2018.
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UPDATE 2017: Another year goes by and more art comes. Honestly I wasn't as productive as last year. Mostly due to me applying for jobs and visiting courses. So RL kept me busy and I wasn't able to do as much art as usual. But even then I was able to learn a lot more. I did more studies and definitly tried to practice more. I tried drawing more landscapes (tho I never really uploaded them on here). Also I did more comics. I feel SO much more comfortable at drawing a comic and I kinda feel like that I'm slowly getting a hang of how to draw them better and faster. Last year I wanted to get better at coloring. It's not amazing coloring, but I feel like that it's better than before. And I'm slowing understanding how coloring works and getting more a feel of it. Tho I need much more practice also on here. Honestly looking at this Improvement meme, it makes me proud that I AM kind of improving every year a bit. I try to get out of my comfort zone every year a little and it makes me so happy. I try not to stay too focused of my on my drawing process and try to change just a tiny thing every time. I want to keep it like this also in the future, which might mean that my art won't always look great or the same. I'm aware that it doesn't always get too much attention from other people, but I'm slowly learning to accept that. I don't want to become that kind of artist where every drawing looks like the same and it doesn't change for years. I'm seeing so many artists who are like that and I don't want to become like them. But ye, my goals for next year will be definitly more focused on coloring and doing general studies of landscapes. I want to be able to draw a badass looking forest. Maybe even slowly move on onto painting? I'm not too sure since it's such a huge and difficult subject. Also I want to draw more comics. I already plan on drawing Flams' comic series and I REALLY hope that it'll work out somehow. If not, I'm hoping to draw other little comics. I just want to get more practice on that. Well then, I'm highly motivated for project and art for next year, can't wait :>
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UPDATE 2016: Well look at this, this is growing longer every year :dummy:. As I've mentioned on the chart, it's been my most productive year. I've never did so many artworks in such a short time. There has been some little breaks, but generally I put out an artwork pretty much every month. Inktober was also aboslutly amazing for me. I never expected that I'd do 62 drawings in one month. That is really a big achievment for me because normally I'm really slow and hesitant about drawing. It makes me really so happy that I haven't given up on it. It also feels like that I'm comfortable to draw a bit more than my OCs. I feel more confident just drawing normal fanart. I also care less about drawing the G/t stuff and just draw stuff that I enjoy. For example all the Hipster Yatens XD. Also I've always been trying to experiment with my art, mostly about the coloring. I still didn't get the hang for the coloring, but I guess I leave that for next year. But generally I've really become much much faster at drawing. The quality wasn't always the best, but it doesn't take that long for me to create an artpiece. It's been a bit easier for me to just... draw. I think I've reached the limit of my speed for my art. Next year, it's up raise the quality and get better at coloring. And also if possible to create more comics and concentrade to create more content for my story. But yeeah, this year felt really good art-wise. It still felt like a complete experiment, but I don't care. It was good stuff.
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UPDATE 2015: Well, normally I'd say that this year went over real quick. Unfortunally that wasn't the case. Art-wise this year went off for me SUPER slow. As I've written up there, this was seriously my most experemental year. Lots of things happened for me at art. I've got a new Photoshot program, I found my very own default brush/doodle setting in SAI and I've got TONS of new programs. I mostly concentraded on doodling and sketching. I really wanted to become faster and I knew that my main problem at drawing is the rough sketching. When the sketch is back, the outcome will be bad too. I mostly ended up never finishing up my drawing and never giving them the final touch. I think this was my year where I produced A LOT of art but low at quality since most of them were doodles. I remember when I doodled everyday something for a period of time. I learned a lot with that. I'm still not perfect at doodling the "perfect" sketch. I was rather confused how to continue after having a sketch. I knew how to cellshade, but it was too boring to me. I didn't want that my drawings end up with the boring shading style. I experimented a lot with painting. And I've noticed that I have A LOT to learn. Sometimes it was darn depressing to notice how much I need to learn to finally see any results. Sometimes it really dragged me down. But however, I enjoy all the doodling and I can do already silly comics within 30 mins when I'm motivated enough (I just never put them online).
What also happend is that I've discovered Undertale! This changed A LOT for me, believe it or not. I found the joy in drawing again!! Throughout the year I was frustrated with myself especially after realizing that I've got SO much to learn and that I'm bearly getting anywhere. At everydrawing I wanted results of improvment. Of course that's impossible. Art was just pure frustration. But after playing Undertale... I just wanted to draw. I wanted to draw those absolutly amazing characters. I didn't care how the drawing will look like, I just wanted to have fun with these characters. I just wanted to enjoy. And with their simple design it was even more fun for me. This was an important reminder for me.
Now let's see how it'll go for 2016. I'm looking forward and I'm filled with DETERMINATION. 16 is my lucky number anyways so I hope I'll improve even more and find the artstyle I wanna grow into. I'm never satisfied with it and I wanna grow more. There's always room for improvment. 
So... Did I improve this year? XD

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I kinda improved, right?...

Hahah, but I still think I suck at drawing 8DD. I wanna improve so much more!! I know that I have much more potential! I could have done much more with my drawing if I have put more time in it. I can't turn time back anymore. That's why I'll come back in 2015 with more enthusiasm and will to draw.
I wanna show you guys my stories. The world I created in which my characters live. I will try to get more serious about art and put the time I need and be more patient. I wanna learn how to draw good landscapes and learn more about anatomy till I can draw without refs. I wanna learn more about painting on digital art. I want to plan my art and do big illustrations that should take about 30hrs. At least 20 hrs for each illustration. And I also wanna draw faster and find proper technics I'm comfortable with. And how to friggin use Clip Studio paint to finally draw a manga.

I listed a lot of things I wanna reach and I know that I can't do everything of it. But I will try. I wanna show the people around me that I'm serious about art and that it's not just a hobby.
It's my life.

Sorry, I really had to .u.
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The improvement is like eye candy